I am in awe. God is mighty and powerful.
The cancer in the lymph nodes of my neck is aggressive and strong. The doctors are surprised it is back so soon and is already so large. But my God is stronger and He is not surprised.
We prayed for an earlier appointment with the surgeon; we were given an appointment a week earlier.
We asked for a surgery date for next week even though we were told that some people wait for a month; I am scheduled for Tuesday.
We need to get a certain scan before surgery is preformed, we were told everything is booked til next Thursday; I am going in tomorrow for that scan.
I am ecstatic. We have asked Him for these good gifts and he has heard our prayers. It reaffirms my knowledge that God is in this whole situation. That he sees small, little me with my cancer. He hears my cries for mercy and for his help and he answers. I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who has just been given the best gift EVER. There are so many problems in the world, so many people crying out to him, why me, O God? Why have you chosen to answer my cry? Your grace is indescribable.
I am grateful. Grateful to be known by the Creator. Grateful to be known by so many who are also his children. Grateful to be at peace in this place that he has brought me to today. He is good.
I will go for that scan tomorrow. They will be rechecking the right side of my neck. We are praying and are hopeful there will be no sign of cancer. They will also be looking at my liver. There may be a small abnormality there. That is fine as long as it is not cancerous. We are praying for mercy again from our Provider.
My faith is strong. My peace is real. My foundation is secure. The one who hears will sustain us through this trial. He is in this. He sees. He answers prayer. Thank you, Mighty One. My life is yours.
His name IS being glorified!! Love you, friend.
ReplyDeleteYour faithfulness is a mighty testimony!
Jessica, thanks for sharing!!! cancer is such a roller coaster. i remember each time something would clear up for me, then something else seemed to collapse again. so grateful in the end for these trials that refine our faith in Jesus and allow us to go deeper in our trust and intimacy with Him. look forward to catching up sometime. thanks for sharing!! love :)
ReplyDeletehahaha, just fyi, Zoe is me, Lauren :) i just like to make up names for myself sometimes on things like this.
ReplyDeleteJessica,
ReplyDeleteI have read your blog and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your words of faith. My husband is currently a patient at Moffitt with stage IV metastatic melanoma.
His orignal tumor was discovered (by me) in February 2011. It took until July 2011 to have it diagnosed and removed. His disease had spread from the original tumor sight to his lymph nodes in his right arm pit. Those lymph nodes were removed with no futher sign of the disease. He had radiation treatments and a year-long course of Interferon, which ended this past November. All PET scans had come up clear, until December...A spot was discovered on his lung. The biopsy proved it to be melanoma, with additional sub-centimeter spots in each lobe of his lungs. Stage IV...
He has just begun treatments with a clinial trial drug called CT011. We decided on this course because the side effects are less and the cost for the drug is covered through the study. We are hoping for good results. He goes every other week for infusion. His next CT scan is in February, we are hoping the largest tumor will have shrunk.
You mention a female doctor at Moffitt. I'm thinking perhaps you and my husband have the same doctor. It is a small world. I understand your rollercoaster emotional journey dealing with this disease as my husband and I are riding it as well. I have much faith in God and turn to Him daily for mercy, strength, and guidance. Know others who understand your situation are thinking of you and praying for you.
I look forward to reading about your progress and your wonderful words of faith and love in our Lord. Perhaps someday we will meet at Moffitt.
Barbara
Barbara,
ReplyDeleteI am grateful for your comment and that you shared your story here. Thank You! What a peace comes from knowing God and his ultimate care during such times as these. I also hope to meet you one day. May the testimony of God's goodness and strength to you and your husband be mighty and powerful! I'm asking God now that he would heal your husband from this nasty disease. Peace to you, friend.
Jessica